Countdown to surgery; today

So, I'm nervous. I'm fidgety and I've been moving around a lot, not been able to sleep, the like. I think its because I'm just all wound up. This always happens, even if its something minor. I'm not allowed to eat after a certain time, not allowed to drink after a certain time, I'm surprised I'm allowed to live after a certain time. Quite frankly, I'm half ready to just turn this around and say nope, nevermind! But I know if I do, then I'll regret it because I want this surgery, even if I'm nervous as anything in the world. I'd probably do well with some sleep but I can't sleep. I want to do something productive but there's nothing productive to do. I wish I still had school, in some weird way, so that I would be busy. I swear, I'm going to drive myself bonkers tonight just because of not being able to sleep.

I've been playing Rock Raiders for the better part of the day, trying to calm down a bit but the nervousness gets worse as it gets closer. In about four hours or so, give or take, I'll be waking up and getting on the road to be there by 7 am. The surgery itself won't take place for another hour or so, which is always the case, and then I'll be under for about an hour, possibly an hour in recovery and then on my way home where I'll sleep the rest of the day and possibly the day after. Of course I'm having my surgery two days before Christmas so that'll be fun trying to stay awake during that time and I'll be awoken by my family early in the morning to go open gifts. I'll be happy there but still and all. Sleep is my best friend after a surgery.

So, right now its all about being nervous. And knowing that it'll be alright in the end so nothing is really needed to be worried about. Well, here's to surgeries. Yay? I'll be sure to post something when I'm coherant enough to actually make complete sentences.